Well.
It been a long time coming.. I have been through so much and its crazy how this is only the beginning. Beginning of sadness, beginning of heartbreak, beggining of happiness, beggining of lessons learned…the beginning of the rest of my life. Done things I thought I would never do, met people I never thought I would meet…split from people I thought I would never part from, but this is life right? Of course it is. Somethings i would love to repeat…do over so I wouldn’t feel the way I do about certain things in the past. But the past is done…the future is cooking something up for me. Something BIG, and all I have to do is live to see it…live to live it. It took 18yrs of preparation and now its time. I’m Ready.
I honestly am not liking my life….at all. Nothing is going the way I feel it should go, I mean it’s at the point where I don’t have control of it anymore….and its the worst feeling. I Lee Eldridge Walker am a depressed teen. We all have highs and lows, but I’ve reached my all-time low. I hate people who advertise there happiness and their relationship status, I hate girls who wants to be friends with me but can’t recognize I want to be more than friends, I hate that I want every girl that DOESN’T want me, I hate how I don’t have the energy to do anything anymore, I hate how the people in my house complain about me going for something when they don’t know that they are, actually, the ones holding me back, I hate..I hate… I hate. Maybe it’s because I miss my mom…she doesn’t live in Houston anymore,maybe that’s the love I need…I do honestly need love. But no, I’m not going to look for it because I always end up empty handed. I always get some girl that’s thrown at me, some girl I was never expecting to go out with….some girl I never wanted. But this is life right? And I don’t care if there are worse things happening to other people in other countries… this is my life…and I’m highly….unsatisfied.
